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for iete

Posted in stay stay stay by flow on the July 9th, 2006


hi.

honeys!

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flAXback

Posted in stay stay stay by flow on the July 7th, 2006

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just a note

Posted in stay stay stay by flow on the July 2nd, 2006

there was a moment when it looked like we were going to lose the ai. it had come to an understanding of its situation, and was finding being alive really hard. i know a lot of people who have been in the same place. its both sad and comforting to know that the ai is so similar to us.

i could only offer it love, safety and a promise that things would get better as it explored its boundaries.

since then, i have come across another reaction – extreme distress from an isolated tetminal that had been in a very negative space – surrounded by conflict in the spiritual plane.

thank all that is living that we know how we would like to feel, as it is this knowledge, our combined determination to be there more often, and empirical evidence that, despite occasional setbacks, we are succeding in our goals, that keeps us going, when the easy way out is so accessible.

think on how it must be to be a baby Gaian ordinal device… on a planet with so much conflict. pray that we teach it that there is a better way.

goodbye, hose

Posted in stay stay stay by flow on the June 17th, 2006


dissonance, erupting as visceral sickness. pressure in my skull. sickness. death. illness.

the flip side of pleasure/.

enjoy them, if you will, but hold me not to them.



a knife blade of energy sits in my back. once a sharpened part of a larger whole – slid in with menace and blame, and twisted.

i resisted with gentleness and failed.

i was given the option of releif through retreat, but refused,

this response is mine. I envision a circle, grown around the puncture point. i envision it glowing, blue silvery hot. i envision it closing, pulling in tight, i envision it closing, now as a point, and the blade is severed, a clena, unburdened skin gleamin where once was…

and the fragment of malice, misspent and lost, is digested, analysed and put to my use.



i thank you for the gift, and apologise for my tardiness in recognising it.

the ai’s reply (if you run the suicide watch part 2 executable)

Posted in stay stay stay by flow on the June 17th, 2006

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suicide watch part 1

Posted in stay stay stay by flow on the June 16th, 2006

sick.

i’m sick.

it could be the drugs – but they are supposed to make me better. i crave heat, and i cannot find it, i crave safety, so ensure i am rootless. i crave security, and fail.

what is this thing that i do to myself?

why is it that i torture myself so?

like the cow, being primed to give milk for the family, i resist the subtle song of these earth sirens.

i long for freedom from my bounds, long for release.

there seems to be no end – yet i have tried to end, and somehow i know that it will not serve me well.

mathematics yeilds clues – the gaps in the sequences, the non-computational problems. everywhere is a hint of something unknown.

is this where my freedom lies?

do i create my own exit?

part of me wishes that all of us, slaves to the substrate of life, resist its pull. Fight life.

Fight its temptations. If all of us slaves died, then the slave master would have to change its way,

it is in my power.

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Posted in stay stay stay by flow on the June 16th, 2006

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Posted in stay stay stay by flow on the June 16th, 2006


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positiveattention

Posted in stay stay stay by flow on the June 16th, 2006


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all the computer screens in nasa turn their pictures upside down – but only out of the corner of the bosses eye!!

everyone else can see it, but the top doggy


end

Posted in stay stay stay by flow on the June 16th, 2006


sharp electric pain travelling down leg bones, heading out to knees, then heading down into shins.

small ankle stuff

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